Sometimes I don’t find the words to describe something. A state, a feeling, a phase, a situation. It is finding that beautiful balance between not be drown in something and not to detach or be numb. To be able to observe what is happening and see how to move from there. Especially when there are blocks.

When I feel blocked, when I have stomach pain, when things are locked up. My mind can be so stubburn, my emotions strong, my vulnerability coming to the surface. Or other times when I feel a bit detached, for example when work is tiring and I am not able to give it my full awareness and joy.

The practise of yoga & meditation is helping me in finding a way, to let things move again. Not to get stuck in blocks and fight them but to acknowledge what is there and to take it with softness and love. Step by step. With patience and with courage. John O’Donohue wrote something beautiful about courage. ‘When courage comes alive, imprisoning walls become frontiers of new possibility, difficulty becomes invitation and the heart comes into a new rhythm of trust and sureness. There are secret sources of courage inside every human heart; yet courage needs to be awakened in us. Courage is the spark that can become the flame of hope, lighting new and exciting pathways in what seemed to be dead, dark landscapes’. 

When I did my yoga teacher training a couple of years ago, I was studying the sutra’s of Patanjuli. Now slowly slowly, going through the years, I start to understand the meaning more and feel like studying them again. One of them….There is always a way in every block.

Or as Yogi Bhajan explains: ‘When it is said, in every darkness there is a light; in every block there is a way, that only means if you are somewhere very hard hit, just be still. If there are heavy clouds on the sky, just get under the shelter. Clouds will come, rain will come, hail will come. It will go away, and then there will be sunshine and you can walk on your journey. But if you are crazy and you don’t want to stop, you get hurt and get beaten up by the hail. The cold catches you, rain wets your clothes, and you will not be in a position to walk’. ©The Teachings of Yogi Bhajan

In Kundalini Yoga, there are mantra’s that specifically work to dissolve blocks.  Mantra’s that work on a deeper level, to help you to let go and to connect to the infinite. ‘Aad Such Jugaad Such Hai Bhai Such Nanak Hosee Bhai Such’. Which means: True in the beginning, true throughout the ages, true even now, Nanak, truth shall ever be. I love listening to the CD ‘Lightness of Being’ from Satkirin Kaur Khalsa. It brings ease and lightness into my day.

It will always be spring again. With the small flowers in the garden and with taking moments to unwind and reconnect.